what now? is it over?

[dianaslovechild]

boy did i screw up. Let me back up. I got my cdl in jan of 2007. went to swift straight out of school. Had four trainers. no problems with them except the last one. Did not report problem right away and it got to shove match. my trainer then was big man. I am good size woman. he was scratched when i shoved back and was taken off his truck. company investigated and said i was at fault and fired me for not reporting it asap. I am listed as will hire with review on dac. I was withthem total 3mos. In april i went to covenant transport. Worked five mos as team w/o hometime. Kept requesting hometime and not get it. Was issued truck while they were looking for co-driver for me. In the first week i had accident. Left turn/ no injuries no sitation no drug test. Minor damage to trailer and parcial damage to passenger truck i clipped as i turned. I picked up another load and headed to cali. the consigne lot was real small. real late at night. no-one to help no other drivers. just parked empty trucks on all sides of me. got out and looked alot inched back to dock bumped into parked truck. called and reported to dispatch and took trailer to yard so another driver could drop it in morning. couple weeks later was at main terminal while waiting for co-driver. they gave me woman. She said she was new too. As we took off she said she could not drive at night. I drove at night. i relized as we drove she was taking notes from the quallcom. She said she could not read the computer. she had trouble reading little print from map. I was up with her during the day to map route for her and then trying to sleep so i could drive at night. I relized i couldnot do this any longer due to lack of rest. we got to arizona and i requested to repower the load. she could not drive at night and i was to tired to finish. She then told me that she had not finished her company thirty days training. I was mad. I did not want a student on the truck nore was i asked or told of her situation. supervisor wanted me to finish the run. it was to be delivered the next morning. i couldn't. We set up repower and she saw one of her old trainers at the truck stop and went to have dinner with him. He put in quall comm that she was with him and all the repower info and truck# the other truck was on the way. not far. I lived half hour frrom where we were and requested to go home since we were their. I got permission to do that. and was given bus ticket info. I left truck while they were in truck stop and went to motel. I was sure supervisor told them. I didnot tell them nor did i wait for truck to gettheir. I got the permission from supervisor over the pay phone.(no record of it ) I went to motel and thought of the lack of hometime and that they put me with student after my two accidents. i was mad and called dispatch and told them i quit. went to bed and called back in the morning to say i did it without thinking due to lack of rest. they said go home and call when i wanted to come back. I called and they said i (quit under dispatch and could not come back) i have been off the truck for 18 mos and no-one will touch me. Is their any hope at all? I also have assult/misdemeaner 5yrs old. ( srcatched my ex and plead guilty and paid fine, probation, and classes. first offense.

dianaslovechild

[pdelney]

`Get your own truck, your own authority. Don't let money or credit hold you back. There are companies willing to help you. OR, go to a small company with fewer trucks. Go to USIS and get a copy of your DAC.